Bipolar Disorder =_=

Two-faced mask. I think I'm wearing this everyday. If you're to ask me what's the problem, I can't answer you right back. I'm having this feeling back and forth and I don't even know if you could call me a bipolar maniac.

Tonight's not the only night I felt like this. When I woke up today, I felt good and all but I don't understand.. when night time comes, suddenly all of my pieces are shattering. Maybe I'm just being over-dramatic or whatever but that's how I really feel.

I don't even know why I'm blogging about this. I can say that I'm experiencing these for the past few months:

Certain happenings in my life that neither I could explain. And yes, tonight I suddenly typed in Google what does a bipolar really mean. According to research, "Bipolar disorder or bipolar affective disorder (historically known as manic–depressive disorder or manic depression) is a psychiatric diagnosis for a mood disorder. Individuals with bipolar disorder experience episodes of a frenzied state known as mania (or hypomania), typically alternating with episodes of depression."

As what I've read farther, I classified myself at the lowest part of the bipolar disorder. It's called the "hypomaniac". It states this: "At the lower levels of mania, such as hypomania, individuals appear energetic and excitable and may in fact be highly productive. Hypomania is a mild to moderate level of elevated mood, characterized by optimism, pressure of speech and activity, and decreased need for sleep. Generally, hypomania does not inhibit functioning as mania does. Many people with hypomania are actually more productive than usual, while manic individuals have difficulty completing tasks due to a shortened attention span. Some hypomanic people show increased creativity, although others demonstrate poor judgment and irritability. Many experience hypersexuality. Hypomanic people generally have increased energy and increased activity levels. They do not, however, have delusions or hallucinations."

As far as I'm concerned, I'm not experiencing hypersexuality though I sometimes act boyish but that's just for fun. Neither could I fully conclude what I really am at this moment. I don't experience this consecutively but I know that this happens to me from time to time.

So guys, don't be surprised if I checked into rehab okay? Haha. Kidding. :'p

Yes I am. :)