Shift for 2013 :D

"Magkaro'n ka rin kasi ng konting lambing man lang d'yan sa katawan mo.. Kahit once a year man lang."

Yes I know, it was indeed my fault. Hindi kasi ako yung tipo ng taong showy sa feelings or masyadong ma-gratitude especially when it comes to my relatives. They know me as the most quiet in our family. Di ko lang naman kasi trip na makipagkwentuhan with them. Usually naman kasi ng itatanong nila sa'kin is about my life..particularly LOVE LIFE. As much as possible, hindi naman sa tinatago ko sa kanila but I think it's not yet the right time for me to tell them since ayaw din naman nila 'ko magkaboyfriend pa and maraming mata na nakasubaybay sa'kin. Sometimes, nasasabi ko na lang din sa sarili ko na alam ko na yung reasons ng teens today kung bakit mas gusto pa nila kasama ang friends nila kesa ang family nila. Pa'no naman kasi, to be honest, nakakasakal na din kasi sila kung minsan. May times din na they want to keep in touch with me pero ewan ko.. di ko lang talaga feel kapag andyan sila for me. I know na sila lang ang maaasahan ko once na magkaproblem ako na di ko maaasahan (siguro) ang friends ko pero sa ngayon ayoko lang talaga. I'm starting to have problems with them and I'm sorry for that. :(

This 2013, I hope na maging maganda na ang pakikisama ko sa relatives ko particularly with my Uncles & Aunties sa Father side. I grew up with my relatives on my Mother side and di naman ibig sabihin nun na kinalimutan ko na ang kalahating parte ng buhay ko. Walang mas matimbang sa kanila, pareho ko lang silang mahal. Ang akin lang naman, sana minsan maintindihan nila that teens want some space and break from people like them. Parang di kasi ako makahinga ng maayos kapag nandyan sila (not literally). 

Bigger Goals. Higher Hopes. Changed Perspectives. Welcome, 2013! :)

Miss Interrogator breaks a heart

  Sorry for disturbing you guys at 1:13am but I think I'm gonna burst out into pieces if I fight the urge to spill this out on my blog. Catchy title, e? Well that's me. Yeah I may seem so proud about it but the first two words just defines who I really am. 

I didn't mean to be harsh around guys nor did I ever wanted to scare them away. This December, I finally concluded to myself that, "Yes, I am a certified interrogator." I don't know what's with my questions that make the guys go parry with me. Am I that a serious talker that makes them think I'm too much to handle? I first encountered this situation by my friend's suitor. I just asked him a few questions through text and in a short while I got a forwarded text from my friend saying that I'm such an interrogator. The next one I encountered was with my former classmate back when I was a Freshman. I asked him about the girl he likes and then as our conversation goes on and on, he told me that I'm like a grandma! Wth is wrong with these guys. I'm just asking dudes. :| The last one was from the guy who's courting my bestfriend. He said, "She's scary.." And I was like, "DO I LOOK LIKE A MONSTER?!"

Boys. Boys. Boys. When will I ever understand them? They also say that girls are hard to understand but all I can say is.. "So are they." Right at this moment, I'm chatting with Toby and to be honest he just made my tears fall once again. :( I just don't understand why he's only replying to me with this '-_-' emoticon. I don't even know what's going inside his mind. I really do want to know if he's still mad at me. The story started last Christmas Eve when I told him that I'm in my Uncle's house to celebrate Christmas. He asked me why didn't I invite him for him to be able to meet my family. Unfortunately that's the reason why he got mad. And right now as I'm chatting with him, he said that he's not mad. But I still feel it. I don't know but I have vibes. :( Please Toby, just tell me the truth. </3

I miss him..so much. :( </3 I hope everything will turn out fine again. I didn't mean to be rude to him because I was just purely joking when I replied to his text. I thought he'd take it as a joke. I'm so sorry Toby, please forgive me. :(

PS: Christmas happenings are all posted on my Facebook acct. that's why I didn't manage to put the pictures in my blog. :)

All About Him.. ♥

          I've been dying to have a post about this guy. I wanted to put his picture here on my blog but I guess it would just cause certain issues since some people who are following me here knows him. Let's just call him, "Giant". I prefer that codename since his voice is so deep. =)) Ok, I already spilled it out. For those who really knows me, they know who this guy is! :P He was my schoolmate ever since my Freshman years. I get to know him through Facebook & YM. :) We used to chat and I could say that we're somehow..good friends. He was Kate & Kateri's classmate back when they were just Freshmen. He became my crush when I personally met him when I became their student teacher in Science. I get to know him even better during our Sophomore year. Things passed great to us and the time came when he asked me if he could court me. Of course I accepted it since I already had a crush on him! :3 And besides, it's somehow a dream come true to a girl like me who's just having a crush on someone yet that someone started liking you back! He's such a gentleman, I could say. He would offer to accompany me home and he would always say, "Ingat!" while flashing his cute smile. :"> He's taller than me..I think I'm just on his shoulder level. K! :P He's the concerned type of suitor. He doesn't want me to pass out on food and he'd always check on me. I appreciated all the efforts he did but sadly, every hello ends with a bittersweet goodbye. The day that I was about to say yes to him was also the day I saw him courting another girl. He's just a sweet jackass! That girl happened to be older than us since she's a Junior that time. I just couldn't bare in my mind if what he did to me was all a lie. We tried to fix that conflict. He said that they were just friends and knowing him sweet to all other girls, I forgave him. He continued courting me until one day again, I saw him change his relationship status on Facebook. He even called the girl by our call sign YAM. What hurts most is that the number was very significant to me. 21. I loved this number ever since I met him. Another problem happened and by that time, we weren't able to fix it. I just don't want him to hurt me again so I distanced myself. This story was 21 months ago. See? Until now! It's still him. And I think, it would always be him. :(

          As Seniors, we're now more matured of what's happening around us. Stories begin popping like mushrooms again about how he still feels for me and how I still feel for him. If I'm to be asked, no doubt that I still like him. Maybe I just had my attention to another guy but it doesn't mean that what happened between us was just nothing. I already got news that I was his first love. Well, that sounds good to me and it made me feel important to his life. :) I'm not just certain if I should entertain him again or welcome him again in my life. Maybe now's not the right time yet but I know that God will make a way for the both of us. Still hoping that one day..he might be the guy for me. 

I finally realized that it really isn't the same without him. :) My friends really know me. They always say that I'd be coming back to him and yet it's happening at the moment.

Last Christmas Party in QCA :(

          This Wednesday, we celebrated our Christmas Party. It was really fun and tiring even though we didn't do many activities just like what we did last three years ago. I can still clearly remember what I wore on our Christmas Party when I was just a Freshman. Jeez. I wore blue skinny jeans matching my pink hoodie top with a black & white sando inside it. Yeah. I really don't have a fashion statement. I always stay with my comfort zone because I'm too ashamed to go beyond my limits. I always think that those dresses the pretty girls wear aren't really for someone like me because I'm born as a boyish kinda girl that's why I really don't prefer wearing dresses, mini skirts or anything girly. Besides it's really not comfortable for me since I'm used to sitting carelessly..Well if you know what I mean. ;) Haha. So yeah, things went so great! :) I came to school at 12:11nn and I was surprised to see that there are only sophomores inside. I came across them and I hurriedly went to our room but it's still locked. Goodness! I'm very punctual. :)) I went downstairs again and I sat beside a sophomore from section Isaias. Good thing she has the same adviser that I had back when I was just like her. Mr. Ruben Yuzon Agustin Jr. The so-called "Tatay" of Ageo '10-'11. I miss him so much! >:D< He's one of the best advisers I ever had ever since I started schooling. 

^ This! Hi, Tatay! :D Haha. Sorry if I didn't ask for permission in getting your cover photo in Facebook! XD Loveyouu! ♥

          Moving on, around five minutes later, one of my classmates appeared. Angie Lyne Capopez! :D She's the salutatorian as the Most Punctual on that day. Kidding aside, she sat beside me and then we eagerly waited for Mary Ann. While we're chatting, Mamsy came out of nowhere and told us that she'd be going to SM to buy her Monita a gift. She also told us to get the keys of our room on her table in the Faculty room. Then came Vergel and I told them (Vergel & Angie) to get the keys of our room on Mamsy's table and I'll just wait for Mary Ann. To make the story short, we got inside the room and then we prepared for the happenings.

          Many things happened after that and we were complete at around 1:30pm. We started eating then had our exchange gifts and we played the Amazing Race. =)) 'Twas really fun 'coz I wasn't a part of it. I'm Clue No. 1! Yeaaah. No need for me to waste my energy. \m/ 

Here are some of the gifts that had been given to me:

This was my gift from Katleen! :) She was the one who picked me in our exchange gift.

This one was from my Babyboo, Mary Ann. :) I'll put this on my phone! :D

Whenever I look at this, I remember the game Plants Vs. Zombies. I really don't know why but it has some resemblance. Haha. :)) This bracelet was from Karl. :) My ultimate boy bestbud! :>

This colorful yet meaningful bracelet came from my Besh, Kate. :) Lalalove this! ♥

This is actually a mirror. I just didn't open it since it will only reflect the camera's flash. :P Came from our EIC in ECHO and my Crunchie, Denise. :3

This zesty perfume got me hooked up with its smell! ♥ This came from my Heartii, Kateri. :)

I also had a gift from our service, Tita Josie. It's a towel! Salmon pink. ♥

                    So much with the gifts, I still have some here in our house but I don't want to expose everything here on my blog. Haha. :D So I'll just post my picture wearing my Christmas Party attire. :)

This was my outfit on our Christmas Party. The light pink cardigan was bought in Cinderella worth Php400 from its original Php800 price. The white sando underneath the cardigan was bought in Jellybean and it's worth Php200 from its original Php350-400 price I think? Haha. The light yellow skirt was also from Jellybean worth Php300 from its original Php500 price! My doll shoes was bought in Circle C, tiangge parts. =)) Its original price was Php280 but we got it at Php260! :) Then my snake choker was originally Php120 but I got it at Php100. Talking about sale huh? Haha! For my outfit, I wasted Php1260. But it's worth it dude. I never felt as girly as ever. I can only do this once a year. =))

          Actually, I still have loads of stories to tell but I'll just blog it later when I wake up. It's 2:02am and I'm still wide awake while everyone here in the house is snoring their butts off. Haha. Goodmorning everyone! It's 12/21/12. Whatcha say? I'm still blogging! :P

Some things are better left unsaid..

Last week was such a roller coaster ride for me. Not talking with my friends, keeping silent for so many days, not even knowing what's going on. I was really bombarded with too many stress and issues with my life. I even affected the people who's not even involved with some personal matters. As a teen, I also undergo changes in which I don't have control. I had a problem with myself, the people around me, and everything that in the end wasn't really a problem at all. Maybe I just exaggerated things that shouldn't be a cause of drama.

To be honest, what I did wasn't really a plan. My friends know me as a jolly and cheerful girl but hey, what was that? What just happened? I slowly drifted apart. All I know is, I wanted space. Parang bigla na lang akong hindi makahinga. People around me kept on asking, "Ano bang problema?" "Bakit ang tahimik mo?" "Nakakapanibago ka. Ang tahimik mo na, 'di ka pa namamansin." I know, I was really not with myself last week. Maski ako, naiinis din ako sa sarili ko kung bakit ako nagkaganun. I pushed people away of my system. Basta narealize ko lang na ginusto kong mapag-isa. Parang gusto kong kilalanin ang sarili ko because I felt that I was too attached with people that I came to a point that I don't even know who I really am. I know it's confusing but that's how I really felt. Para akong na-left alone. The girl whom I used to treat as my bestfriend? I don't know what happened. We barely talk about things and all she blabbers about is her suitor who's now giving her up. Hay naku. Ayoko na lang talaga magsalita about things. Isa ko pang naging problem is about my family, most especially my Uncle. Yung tipong, pinadalhan ka nga niya ng gadgets and money as Christmas gifts pero isinusumbat niya? Sana di ba, di na lang siya nagpadala? Ganyan naman sya noon pa. Pwes, kung kay Mama nagawa niya yan, saken hindi! Di ako padadaig sa mga pinagsasabi niya. And in all fairness naman, hindi dahil sa kanya kaya ako nakakapag-aral pa rin ngayon. Makatapos lang ako, ipapamukha ko sa kanilang hindi ko kailangan ng tulong nila. I can feed myself. I can support my needs. :|

That's actually the main reasons kung bakit ako nanahimik. Simple things. I know I can tell them to my friends, pero bakit di ko sinabi? Simple lang.. Ayoko kasing mandamay. Alam ko may mga problema din sila. And I don't want to cause them any burden. That's why I intended to just shut up. I didn't know that it would cause them pain. I really didn't mean to.

These girls? Sila yun. Yung nainis sa'kin, nalungkot kasi bigla na lang ako nawala. Di ko sila kinakausap, di ako namamansin. Oo alam ko lahat talaga yun kasalanan ko. Silent treatment. =)) Pero klinaro ko yun sa kanila na hindi sila ang problema ko. Never kong magiging problema yang mga yan. Sobrang na-touch pa ko kasi talagang nag-effort sila alamin yung problema ko. Kahit mahirap ako intindihin, di nila ako sinukuan. Nakakatouch lang dba? Imagine having friends like them. Sobrang jackpot ka na. Pero sorry, nasaken na sila e. :"> Haha! :)) Sa Christmas Party, ihhug ko ng bongga yang dalawang yan. ♥ Super salamat Kate & Kateri. Mabasa niyo man 'to o hindi, alam ko God will make a way para malaman niyo 'tong kadramahan ko. Sorry kung pinainis ko man kayo or pinalungkot, ganito talaga ako e. Lokaret. Sala sa init, sala sa lamig. Di ko talaga ineexpect na in the end, kayo pa talaga yung mananatiling nandyan para sakin. Mahal ko kayo, sagad-sagad. >:D< :*

"Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest. It's about who came and NEVER left your side."

^ This is the best way for me to cope with my problems. Let go and let God. O:)

Missed Blogging :(

Hi guys. Sorry for not posting here for the past few days. I was really busy (chos) HAHAHA. =)) Feeling ko naman ang hectic ng sched. ko e 'no? Pero seriously, bigla na lang akong tinamad na makipagconnect sa social media. I don't know. -.-" I'm active in the texting world pero pagdating dito sa Net bigla akong nawaley. Anyways, I have so many kwento! ;) Annually, QCA celebrates our English Fest during the month of November. And I've been an active part of it ever since when I was a Junior. Last year, I was the representative of our section for the Extemporaneous Speech. Grabehan lang mga 'Teh at mga Koya! XD I'm always nervous whenever I stand for my section. I always think that I'm not in front of the audience for myself, but for the people who trust and believe in my capabilites. :) So to cut the story short, fortunately, I won. I got Php300 for my prize. Edi ang saya ko na. Haha. Mababaw lang naman kaligayahan ko e. :) Syempre, lulubusin ko na ang pagrereminisce. Here are some of the pictures. Credits to whoever were the owners. Dami kong paparazzi e. =))

I suddenly missed my Junior days. Haha! Grabe, super kabado ako nyan. Mautal-utal pa yata ako? But still, I managed to do my best for the sake of my beloved section, Antimony. ♥ And now, for my Senior year, I was chosen as the representative for our Oration. Hay Lord, sana po kayanin ko. O:) I do believe in myself, pero syempre ang kaba di naman nawawala yan 'di ba? Basta, tiwala lang! 'Di ako pababayaan ni God. Sabi nga din sa'kin ni Ma'am Dela Cruz, "4th year ka na. 'Wag kang papatalo sa mas bata sa'yo." She's really an inspiring teacher and a very great coach! I so idolize her! :"> Sana maging worth it ang pag-coach niya sa'kin. :D

Moving on, ito naman ang latest chika ko. Haha. I just bought a new book yesterday. Ito siya oh:

Galing 'no? Akala niyo kung anong libro na. Haha. I suggest you guys to buy this book. Tangkilikin ang sariling atin! :D Puro advice about love, friendship, bagsak na grades at kung anu-ano pa. May sense 'to promise, akala mo lang wala. =)) Ang mga teens kasi ngayon, puro love na pinag-aatupag e. Wow ha? Parang ako 'di ganon? XD Pero syempre naman kasi, learn to balance. Wala namang masama sa pagkakaroon ng crush. Pero syempre dapat isipin muna ang future! :D Pati si Besh bumili din nito e, nainspire ako sa kanya pati kay Ate Rachelle. It's cheap naman kasi. Php160 lang. Bumalik na naman tuloy pagka-inlove ko sa mga libro. :3

So yeah, ano pa ba dapat kong ikwento? Ayun! Umm, sana if ever ako man ang manalo sa Oration, sabi "daw" kasi Php500 ang prize e. If ever man, bibili naman ako nung The Fault In Our Stars by John Green. Php695 yun e. Nakita ko kahapon sa Trinoma. :"> Mahal 'no? Pero syempre, dadagdagan ko na lang para lang sa sake na mabili ko! =))

If ever na manalo man ako, this would be my gift for myself. And, meron pa pala! Galing naman sa Uncle ko. Pero syempre, I'll post it kapag nandito na sila sa Pinas. ♥ Guess muna kayo kung ano yun. ;) Haha! 'Til next time! Magmememorize pa 'ko ng piece ko e. :D :-h

Career Orientation Part 3

Our career orientation was first held last October but our first day was cancelled due to endless rainstorms. It was rescheduled today and guess what? We're not even prepared! :| The president of our student government didn't even tell us that we're gonna have it today. I was like.. really bombarded with so many things to do. I even slept at 1:30 AM just to finish my formal letter about All Saints' Day. How the eff am I gonna write 50 sentences in 3 paragraphs? That's the worst thing I've ever encountered in my whole high school life. It's way much better if we'd write it in English but it should be written by our very own language, dude. Nosebleed! O_O XD So, going back to the topic, many universities came to our school and presented their cool courses. Actually, it only became cool when they gave us freebies but unfortunately, I didn't even receive at least one. :(

Many universities dropped by and gave us a hint of what kind of college they are but there are only 2 universities that caught my eye. It's Miriam College and Philippine Women's University. I wasn't really that interested at first but when I saw the journalists they produced, I just found my jaw dropping because of their awesomeness. :> From Miriam College, they had Korina Sanchez & Connie Reyes. While on Philippine Women's University, they got Boy Abunda! Yes dude, Boy Abunda ftw. :D :"> PWU is not only for girls, it's also for boys! :D Imagine, Boy Abunda, your professor in Communication Arts! That's one hell of a ride. \m/ It really gives me goosebumps whenever I imagine him being my professor and my OJT would be on ABS-CBN. Gaaaahd! Could this get any better?! :"> I would really want to try here on PWU. Well, I would be pushing my luck on PUP this January but I still do hope that I could make it through here on PWU. Goodluck to me! :D

Kateri Francesca Alamo Zapanta ♥

Gandang babae 'di ba? Bestfriend ko yan! Naks. Haha. Tinatamad kasi ako sulatan din siya ng letter kaya ang ginawa ko, blinog ko na lang. Pangit din kasi penmanship ko. Haha! :D Nahiya naman kasi ako, nakatatlong letters na siya sa'kin tas ako isa lang! :)) Yung recoletter ko sa kanya. :3 Kaya ngayon, medyo babawi naman ako. Effort din maghanap ng pictures ha! XD So, ito na nga ipapakilala ko na siya. Obviously her name is Kateri Francesa Alamo Zapanta. Kace for short! Haha! :) Itong babaeng 'to, naging classmate ko lang siya last year. Paulit-ulit ko naman na 'tong nasabi sa kanya e. :)) At first, ayoko talaga siya maging classmate nun. Based sa mga naririnig ko, kesyo di daw maganda ugali, marami na daw nakaaway and so on and so forth. XD Kaya syempre, iwas naman ako. 

Hanggang sa dumating na yung 1st day of classes namin. Una, tinatabihan niya nun yung mga Chickas sa'min! Haha! XD Naging kaclose ko lang siya, bandang midpart na ng school year. Nakakasama na sa mga galaan, nakakausap na madalas.. Lumilipat pa nga yan ng upuan para makipagkwentuhan sa'min noon e. :)) And nakakatext ko na rin siya! Oha? 'Di ba ang galing? Parang noon lang, 'di ko alam kung anong tunay niyang ugali. Infairness pa,  nakapag-open ako agad sa kanya. :"> Madali siyang kausap, 'di ka nga maiilang e. Kasi magaling siya magbigay ng opinion niya and kinabiliban ko talaga dyan, ipaglalaban niya katwiran niya lalo na 'pag alam niyang siya ang tama! :> Idol ko yan e. ♥ Haha! :D Mas naging kaclose ko siya lalo nung Farewell Party na namin. Dun nabuo ang Mama'Chickas. Close ko silang lahat naman, 8 kami to be exact pero pinakamadalas kong nakakasama, si Kate and si Kateri. ;) 

So as you can see, yan po kami! Haha! Junior days namin yan. Checkers ang peg namin nung araw na yan. Finals na kasi kaya tinulungan namin si Popcdada magcheck ng papers. Bait namin 'no? :"> Kakaloka magcheck ng papers ha! Pero tignan nyo naman, nakuha pa namin magsmile & magpose. Lol. XD

Ito naman yung 1st ever letter ni Heartii saken. :') 4th Friendsary pa lang namin yan. Ngayon, 9 months na kami! Malapit na din mag-one year! Yeaaah! 26 e. ♥ Haha! :D Ma-effort nga kasi yan magsulat e. May 2 letters pa siyang nandito sa'kin e. Pero tinatamad kasi ako i-scan. Haha! Akin na lang yun. Basta, lagi namang nakaka-touch ang letter nyan saken e. :'p 

This was taken last September..Forgot the exact date! Haha! :D Basta nung nagcelebrate si Julia ng birthday niya nyan. :)

Ito naman, sa pagkakatanda ko, after CAT namin 'to. Tas ako babalik pang school kasi may ECHO-ICT Seminar kami nun. Siya, gagala na lang! Hahaha! :D

I'm super thankful na nakakilala ako ng tulad ni Kateri. :"> Drama? XD Pero, totoo nga. Dapat talaga, di muna jinujudge ang isang tao hangga't di pa siya kilala personally. Kagabi lang, nakapag-open na naman ako dyan! Wahaha! At ayun, may natutunan na naman ako. Before I end this, I would like to say na love na love ko yang babaeng yan! Protective sa'kin yan e. :"> Iyakin din! Haha! Pero, pareho lang naman yata kami? Haha. Alam namin kapag di good mood ang isa sa'min e. Bilis namin makiramdam! Haha! Ito na letter ko for you Heartii! Typewritten man, galing naman sa puso! ♥ I love you! To infinity and beyond. ∞

"Trust enough, but not too much."  

© Kateri ♥

Is being a PRIORITY too much to ask?

Sorry for being too obnoxious or posting random stuffs here on Blogger that goes too heartbreaking. Lol. :)) I just can't afford to keep this on my heart and don't do anything about it. So obviously my title is about that thing called priority. Well, I just want to know if being a priority counts as a burden for someone who would make time and effort for that somebody they love or value most. I've been through, somehow, several people in my life for the past 1 decade & 6 years of my life but still, I can't feel someone treating me as his priority.

Yes, there goes my family, my friends, any other people who loves or adores me just the way I am. But hey? I'm a teen and there comes a time that I want to be valued by that person who's got my eye on. I'm sure everyone can relate. Teenage years are really crucial yet fantastic in its own unique way.

Going back to the topic, I really envy girls who have those people in their lives that make them complete and not ask for anything more. I just want to have their life just like that. But at the end of the day, I realize that I'd still choose to live my life the way it is today because I don't know the reason behind their smiles. Maybe they're just like me. Trying to smile to hide the pain away? Haha. Yeah, I'm an over-dramatic person but that's the way I am. Blogging really helps me to recover to different highs & lows in my life.

Ciao! ;)

Frixion :>

FRIXION COLORS ♥

Just a little trivia about this amazing pen. :> Last Wednesday, I went to the Faculty Extension right after our last set of exams. Since I'm the President of the Pabinhian organization, I'm the one assigned to check if there will be absent teachers or if they will ever have a meeting and they can't go to their respective classes. As I entered the cold room, I saw the new Chemistry/Biology teacher in our school. His name is Sir Avie John Tesorero. Indeed, he is a good-looking guy. But that's not the reason why I blogged this. :)) I told him to leave the activities he will let the students do for the next day because last Thursday, QCA held a Science seminar for those who will be part of our Investigatory Project next year. So to shorten this, he will be part of it and he can't attend his classes on that day. After he finished writing down the activities, he saw me writing something on a piece of paper using my Frixion pen. He said, "Frixion?" Then I nodded and said, "Yes, Sir. Why?" "Well, my girlfriend uses that pen too. But there's a disadvantage using that pen." "Really? What is it, Sir?" I was very eager to know the reason. :D He said, "Yes, you could erase the mistakes using that pen but when it's exposed to heat, it could also be erased even when not using its eraser. That's why, it's not that advisable to be used." 

I was amazed with another discovery last Wednesday. That's the best thing on being a Pabinhian President or even as a member. You can always have those random facts that are not somehow related to the subject that the teacher is teaching. The conversation goes a lot meaningful when you simply ask. ;)

So yeah, that's all for my sharing moment 101. =)) *bow*

Bakit kung kailan okay na, tsaka bumabalik?

Silly eh? After 1 month and 11 days of no communication on Facebook, there he goes randomly chatting with me. I was quite shocked when I saw his name suddenly popped up on the chat box. He's not the type of guy that would chat with someone like me, whom he knows he wouldn't have a good conversation with. Why is he like this? Because of what happened yesterday? Dude, fyi, I'm so over you. =)) It may not look like that way whenever you're around but please don't be too confident that I still like you. It 's getting in my nerves. O_O I'm trying my very best to distance myself to you and I already said Sorry to you back on our recollection. But that doesn't mean that I'll welcome you again in my life. It's better for us to stay this way; less than friends. Just please, back yourself off. It won't help us to make the situation look like we're okay when I know we're still not.

The Last ღ

I am about to watch this video on YouTube entitled "The Last". Well I think this is really sweet & inspiring. :"> I'm looking forward to experiencing random Kilig Vibes tonight since I'm somehow experiencing it right now. :)) Actually I don't even know why but it comes out naturally. :| I recommend you guys to watch this as well. Join me! :D

Nearest exit..

Hindi ko na talaga alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman. So yeah, our recollection is finally over. Andami ko lang narealize after our retreat. Sa tingin ko, mas napagaan ang burdens ko or even nawala pa nga yata e. :) I really want to thank Alagad ni Maria Seminary for that. Ang laki ng naitulong nila saken 4 & a half months before I leave my Alma Mater. </3 So yeah, I even apologized to my ‘ex-suitor’ back when I was just in my sophomore year. Grabe. Medyo nene pa peg ko nun. Naalala ko pa na ultimate crush ko pa sya nun. Haha! Nakakatuwa magreminisce. Parang kelan lang, wala pa kong pakialam sa itsura ko. Wala sa vocabulary ko ang pagiging CONSCIOUS. Pero syempre nung mag-3rd yr na hanggang ngayong 4th yr, conscious naman na ko. Kahit na minsan parang nawawaley poise. Pano naman kasi, ang hirap magpakagirlaloo ng over. Saya magpaka-careless minsan e. XD

Going back to the topic, naguguluhan na naman talaga ko. Parang..umiiral na naman ang insecurities ko. Well alam ko namang lahat ng tao may insecurities e. Pero ewan ko ba. Iba talaga yung feeling kapag alam mong may nauna sayo dba? Yun bang, di ikaw yung original. Parang pakiramdam mo minsan, rebound lang. Or even worse, ginagamit ka lang para maging masaya sya ulit. K. Drama mode. =)) Ehh. Nafifeel ko na naman kasi na..I’ll never be good enough for anyone. Parang..lagi na lang kulang ang nabibigay ko. Di ko kayang maki-level sa iba or mahigitan man lang sila. I feel like I’m an underdog! >,< Ramdam ko kasing may kahati ako e. Ewan ko. Magulo na naman ang utak ko.

Ok na nga kami ni past pero etong si present ko naman naguguluhan na ko. Di na rin sya nagpaparamdam. 3rd day na ‘tong wala kaming communication. :( Di ko akalaing kakayanin niya kong tiisin. Grabe. <///3

       

Yan lang naman ang gusto kong mangyari e. Sana naman atleast for once, matuto syang makiramdam. :(

Goodnight, goodnight! Parting is such sweet sorrow, that I shall say good night till it be morrow.

Hi guys. I'm not yet sleepy so I'll post something boring here. Haha. :)) So yeah I'm so happy that I finally know how to tweak my template here on Blogger. Yeaaah. *Dancing like an idiot* I so love my template right now because of le books. ♥ So as what I've said in my previous post, I have a Tumblr acct. and I post there WHATEVER I want. I also reblog, of course. Since I have my Blogger acct. right now, then that'd be greateeer. ;) I'll be more of a certified blogger now. Lol. XD Sorry for what I'm saying 'coz I'm still floating on Cloud 9, dude! He told me while we were talking late this afternoon that.. :"""""> Sheesh. Okay I'll spill it out. He told me this: "Ikaw lang ang babaeng nagpapatibok ng puso ko." And I was like.. O_____O Gaaahd. I didn't even expect that he could say that to me. Well, he also promised me that no matter what happens we could make this through. We just need to trust each other; nobody else but us. Maybe that's the main reason why couples break because they always tend to listen with others while you're drifting apart. Oh well, our first 2 months were really crucial. We always fight..but that's just the beginning. As of now, we're definitely okay and I hope we'd stay this way. :3 Anyways, goodnight people! Still need to rest 'coz tomorrow would be a long day again for me. Godbless us all! ^_^ 

I love you, Toby. ♥

How I wish he knows how to say these words to me. He always says that he likes me but that's the end of the story. He's really got me tongue-tied.

How to be the best version of yourself :)

Wear clothes that actually fit your body and make you feel good. Don’t buy the t-shirt you feel sort of fat in because guess what? You will always feel sort of fat in it! Furthermore, don’t buy an item of clothing that’s too tight as motivation to lose weight. You won’t do it and the item of clothing will just sit there, taunting you and your body.

Spend less time hate-reading things on the Internet and more time reading things that will enrich your brain. Reread your favorite novel or essay and try to glean something new from it. Read something that will motivate you to create something, that will motivate you to be somewhere different than where you are. When in doubt, just listen to a particularly inspiring podcast of This American Life. That usually gets the job done.

Surround yourself with people who make you want to be a better person. More kind, more considerate, more productive. We are a reflection of our surroundings, which means that if you’re hanging out with gross people, you’re going to be a little bit gross. Spend time with people who excite you, who possess qualities you would like to have. Walk away from a hangout session feeling invigorated, not dejected.

Take yourself out on dates. Go to the movies by yourself at 3 o’clock in the afternoon and try not to feel so small. Eat lunch outside and bring a book so you’re not just staring into space. It might be scary at first but you’ll settle into it. It’ll feel good. After it’s over, give yourself a kiss on the cheek and text yourself in the next 24 hours saying, “I HAD SUCH A GREAT TIME! LET’S DO IT AGAIN?” Respond immediately with “YES.” Phew. Pressure is off. You are into you!

Let go of the ex who treated you badly. Let go of all the terrible things that have ever happened to you and replace it with this optimism, this certainty that everything will be okay and that you’ll eventually become the person you were meant to be. Some days, it will feel like you’re so far away from accomplishing your goals and that’s okay. Goals are meant to feel far away. That’s why we work towards them! To get some perspective, just think of where you were two years ago and I guarantee that you’ll see that progress has been made.

Avoid the following things: Going to parties with people who are more successful than you, eating over the sink at 4 a.m., talking to your parents about money, talking to ANYONE about money, getting lunch with an old best friend you have nothing in common with anymore, kissing someone who makes you feel nothing, kissing someone who makes you feel too much, not kissing anyone at all for a prolonged period of time, not leaving your apartment for an entire weekend, engaging in behavior you know will make you feel ashamed. Easy as pie, right?

Right.

Pay attention. Be self-aware. Try your best to understand those around you. Through understanding others, you’ll gain a better understanding about yourself.

Change is gradual. Change doesn't happen with a new pair of jeans or moving to a different city. It comes from within. Our generation has no real markers for where we should be. We get there when we get there. The answers are less obvious and clear. All you can really hope for is that you survive with your self-respect intact. In the meantime, just enjoy the ride.

And if you feel nauseous at any time, feel free to throw up.

© thelovewhisperer

First-ever!! ♥

Today is my first day here on Blogger. Hi guys. Haha. :D So yeah, I've been through blogging for a year now but I think I'm not good enough to be fitted here on Blogger. I have a Tumblr acct. and you might want to visit it as you wish. ;) Heehee. I post random stuffs there about my personal life, rants, and anything under the sun. Hoping to have more friends here on Blogger. Ciao for now! :)

Julia's 16th Birthday Bash ♥

Happy Happy Birthday to our dearest Captain Ball, Julia Manalo Bartolome. :"> Actually her birthday was really on the 25th of September but she decided to celebrate it today, September 29, 2012. I had a lot of fun with my co-ECHO & ICT members. The food was OZM. Looking forward to another bountiful and happier life for her. :D We love you, Bestii! Happy Birthday again. :)